It’s rare, I think–even within the context of Green Recovery–for veganism to have as immediately powerful an impact as it has had on Debs’ life. But the lifestyle seems to have given her tremendous peace, as well as a sense of connection to something outside of herself, something big and important and worthwhile. I’m so glad that she’s found some freedom from the obsessive cycles that seemed to dominate her thinking until only recently, and I’m honored to be sharing her story today.
我的故事开始于童年。I was always chubby but my relationship with food took a sinister turn at aged 10 when my dad and I moved into his partners home. She had 2 daughters, both of whom were very slim yet her fridge and cupboard were stocked full of chocolate bars. I remember the feeling of awe when I’d peer inside at all the goodies, things we never had at home before so it wasn’t long before I started getting up during the night to steal food. I’d sneak it back to bed and scoff 2 or 3 bars then stuff the wrappers down the side of the bed. Inevitably this didn’t go unnoticed and I remember the feeling of shame when I returned from school one day to be confronted with the evidence; crumpled up and layed on the table.
This carried on untill I left home aged 15, I was free and I could eat what I wanted. The secret eating stopped but I was still consuming huge amounts of food, just without the fear of getting caught. It was around this time I joined my first Weight Watchers class. I weighed 210lbs and I remember the leader assuring me I’d never be this heavy again. I worked hard and lost around 30lbs but my food addiction grew. I was obsessed with calorie counting and every waking thought was about food. What was having for breakfast? How long till I could have my next meal? What foods had the lowest calories so I could “save them up” for evening incase I needed them.
The next 10 years saw my weight yo yo but always getting heavier. I tried diet pills from the GP, joined lots of gyms, tried atkins but everything was short lived. At age 25 I made my mind up to go back to Weight Watchers. I’d always maintained it had made my addiction worse but I needed something structured to get myself under control. I weighed 280lbs when I joined but I threw myself into it wholeheartedly and lost 100lbs. I should have been a shining example of health, but I was miserable. I was more obsessed than ever. I weighed my food meticulously, sometimes 3 or 4 times. I wrote down every morsel that passed my lips. I weighed myself upwards of 20 times a day and my mood became inextricably linked to the display on those scales. If I was lighter than the last time I’d weighed then I’d feel elated but if I was even a few grams heavier I’d binge eat to console myself. I started a cycle of binging and starving and even my new found love of running became a tool to control my weight. The scariest part was when I found myself going on 10 mile runs without water and deliberately not re hydrating till after I’d been weighed in the hope of losing a pound or two. I even donated blood once in an attempt to lose some weight!
During this time I was searching desperately for something to cure me. I attended a stress management class prescribed by my GP, I found a charity who help people suffering with ED’s and went to support groups. I tried CBT and EFT therapy. I found a hypnotherapist who works specifically with ED sufferers and as a last ditch attempt I asked my GP for antidepressants. None of these things worked independently but in hindsight I was on my own journey to recovery and they were all parts of the puzzle.
大约一年前，当我在我最低我遇到的偶然福克斯在刀纪录片,开始研究benefits of a plant based diet. It felt “right” but it also felt unattainable for someone who wanted to get away from obsessing over food. I spent the last year looking into veganism, the ethical and environmental side as well as the health benefits and watched films such asFood, Inc.,地球人,脂肪，生病了，快死了和阅读The China Study从头到尾。在今年一月，我决定，我不得不做出改变permenant。证据是压倒性的，我觉得，为了更人道自己然后我就开始与被亲切的星球。
I asked Debs if she might be willing to share a short bio, so that we can all get to know her better. She said, “I’m 31 and live in Glasgow with my partner and 2 cats. I work with deafblind people and love to spend my time with friends and family, cycling, watching movies and cooking“。
Finally, I appreciate Debs’ admission that she worries how her veganism will be perceived by those around her. Will it be regarded as a fad or a diet or a quick fix? I hope that time and patience, not to mention further strides into continued recovery, will give her more and more confidence. My experience has been that, the more peaceful one’s relationship with food becomes, the more friends and family and outside observers are able to accept and support one’s dietary choices (whatever they may be!). So, I wish Debs a meaningful, connected, and joyous relationship with food–today and always–and all that comes along with it.
Thanks for sharing, Debs. As always, readers, your support and comments are welcome!