“自由和未支配”:艾莉森的绿色复苏故事
2015年9月11日

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Happy Friday, everyone. This feels to me as though it was the first real week of September, and it was a hectic one at that, so I’m happy that the weekend is here. And I can’t think of a more wonderful way to wrap up the week than to share a newGreen Recovery story

我爱的故事,这个故事的背后几乎一样多,因为我喜欢这个故事本身!笔者,艾莉森发现Choosing Raw, and particularly the绿色回收部分, and was so inspired that she put her own story on paper that very same night. Like many people who submit stories for the series, she struggled with feelings of self doubt, including “what’s so special about me that people would want to read?”

我向她保证,她讲了她的奋斗,她在处理她所有的ED,她慈悲的生活方式承诺的细微差别的诚实,她希威廉app望提供了自己的经验作为一种安慰慷慨的精神勇敢/启发别人,是很特别的实在。我知道你都同意。这里的艾莉森的绿色复苏的故事。


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Thank you so much, Gena, for creating this blog. This is the blog that I have been waiting for and feel like I’ve finally come home. To begin: I am not a food blogger, nutritionist, or mental health worker. I have wanted to be a health care worker my whole life and that’s where my path has taken me. I have somewhat segregated my struggles with food from the rest of my life.

我的ED背景主要来自我的青少年时期在加拿大的精英花样滑冰运动员(仅供参考起见,我35)。我参加了对在特定的,这是非常相似,在这个意义上体操,我们是每周称重一次,我们的脂肪测试张贴在公告栏上都可以看到(与已超过理想高亮测试)滑冰,和一般,所有的女孩都关心自己的体重。威廉app我无法标示我的ED,因为我奋斗甚至称之为是因为当时只有几次,当我被严格限制自己或减持。我开始计算卡路里的时候我14岁,在17我严格限制我的食物摄入量,所以我会被允许参赛。当我不干了,突然间,我失去了控制,所有被剥夺事与愿违。我猛吃,我清除,我激增,成为沮丧,因为我觉得,和许多人一样,我也没有什么理由让我特别了 - 滑冰是我是谁。

Since then I have pretty much engaged in everything under the sun. Binging, purging, self-harm, substance abuse, compulsive eating, over-exercising, secretive eating (I also had a psychotic episode but that’s another story), you name it, I have probably tried it. I had been vegetarian from the time I was 13, mostly because I didn’t like the pork chops and sausages my mother would make. I carried this on for 20 odd years and it was never difficult but I always said I could never go vegan. To me (and the medical recovery model), veganism was always about restriction and what I couldn’t eat.

Fast forward to my late twenties, when, after a great deal of counseling, a mindfulness based cognitive therapy program, and support groups at Sheena’s Place in Toronto, I gained a great deal of self-confidence, independence, and positive coping strategies that allowed me to stop the self-harm and purging. The only problem was….I still didn’t know how to eat….My weight would fluctuate by up to 40 pounds from year to year as cycled through wardrobes. I didn’t know how to live “in the middle”. There was no balance. Every time I started trying to “eat healthy” or “give up dieting” I said I was sick and tired of the struggle and that this was the last time. Only to be foiled 8-12 months down the road by restriction or rampant junk food consumption. I tried weight watchers and fell into restriction again, never consuming the minimum number of points. Then I gained the weight back.

在这个时候,我没有采纳的一件事是瑜伽。我停止锻炼燃烧卡路里(我将不可避免地放弃的时候,我的饮食去捶出来),去瑜伽说:“我觉得好之后”的唯一原因。这也与曾经帮助我渡过自我毁灭的冲动和想法正念技能吻合。然后,今年的圣诞节,我决定我想要一个健康的食谱圣诞节。我想停止发明具有配方无论是在冰箱(从未印证 - 因此我的冲浪博客,不写他们),并有专人给我一个想法,告诉我该怎么做。同时,我去了一个新年瑜伽类(在Savansana在午夜结束),其中我们每个人都写下了当年的意图(不是分辨率)。我相信你们大多数人会明白两者之间的区别。我的目的是要用心吃。我仍然有标签从我的柜子里挂着每天都提醒我做到这一点。

当我去挑选从我得到的圣诞食谱配方,我很惊讶地发现它是一个素食主义者的食谱。这是我如何成为一个素食主义者的意外,学会吃。我开始从书,每天晚上做饭吃晚饭。饭菜很美味!我很震惊,我不觉得我是在什么“失踪了”。然后午餐从书中来的。然后,我又买了菜谱。我读了更多的养殖厂,我看着像“Vegucated”纪录片。我买和读The Kind Dietand疯狂性感饮食。越来越多的我被提醒,素食主义不仅是健康的,它在道德上是有意识的。这是不是限制,它是关威廉app于营养。我还是觉得从我不会因素食主义者有助于工厂化养殖的想法断开,但每过一段时间我看到一个图形的照片和我捕捉到的关注。

我没有一夜之间成为植物为主。我渐渐转变,留在我的咖啡最后罐装淡奶(文化传统在这里纽芬兰)。从那时起,我的食物整个关系发生了变化。我吃饭的时候,我饿了。我不狼吞虎咽自己了。我考虑一下,我想吃多少,而不是反应。我还是吃得过饱的时候,但是我不得不接受,这是正常的,而以其他方式认为是完美主义的另一种形式。当我滑起来,吃的动物产品(通常是全饼干面团,我正在做我的合伙人)或让自己的一些加工素食,我不细说了。我感到内疚闪烁,然后我告诉自己只是铭记在未来的日子里这样的选择的。

Suddenly, I have become a foodie. I love cooking and post my food photos on social media. Arguably most significant, my food *finally* satisfies me in a way that it never has before.

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我没有尝试,现在吃的那种感觉,因为明天我将不会被允许。我承认,在开始的时候,我的一部分想转变,因为“如果我是素食主义者,吃健康的,没有人会判断我要胖”,但现在我真的让我做我自己的选择,而不是其他任何人。这并不是说我还没有。我还是衡量自己每月一次(虽然规模隐藏起来,避免焦虑和诱惑,不由自主地权衡自己),我坚定的关于不包括在我的饮食油(我还不确定这是否是健康原因或不健康的,威廉appbut I accept that it’s the choice I have made for the time being and it may change in the future).

I can truly say though, that transitioning to a vegan diet has been every bit as essential to my recovery as countless private therapy sessions. Since learning how to eat (literally, that’s what I feel I have gained), I realize how effortless eating can be and how much time and energy I spent trying to eat “normally” in the past. I feel free and unencumbered. I am so grateful to have found this amazing blog (I found it tonight, believe it or not, I only wish I had discovered it 12 months ago) because I had no idea so many other people had a similar experience. Sifting through it feels like reading your favourite novel or meeting a kindred spirit, like you finally feel understood.


首先,我因此受到艾莉森的情绪感动,她感觉好像与他人通过绿色复苏连接是各种各样的衣锦还乡,共享的体验:这正是我一直想要这些故事寄养!

我也这么欣赏她的诚实和自我意识的。我喜欢她能承认自己有偶尔还会遭到粗暴天的食物,继续固守在她的饮食有一定的限制,即使她不是100%是什么力量推动了她。这表明经济复苏的事实,这是它的全细微差别和问题和复杂的时刻。这不是一个干净的“前后”。重要的是,人们可以继续把对饮食和自我保健的行为反射的态度,不害怕问尖锐的问题不时。

Finally, I was practically cheering when I read Alison’s description of the freedom that veganism has given her: “…my entire relationship with food has changed. I eat when I’m hungry. I don’t gorge myself anymore. I contemplate what, and how much I want to eat instead of reacting. I still overeat sometimes, but I have come to accept that this is normal, and that to think otherwise is just another form of perfectionism。” These are such wise words, and they capture perfectly what it means to let go of food obsession and self-loathing.

艾莉森,我向前庆祝您的精彩跨越式恢复!感谢今天大家的分享。读者,我希望你有你的反应和反应艾莉森的话帮腔,而那些你谁正在努力将采取在她的故事的希望。

And I wish everyone a great weekend. See you on Sunday for weekend reading.

XO

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  1. Yay! Well done Alison! I love this series. So heartening. Even though I’ve only had minor relapses (6 years ago) even now I feel that the vegan diet helps me to eat freely and with gusto. My husband has finally accepted that my being vegan is lifelong and not another experimental diet. High five for ED recovery and veganism!

    • Thanks Sarah!
      我读过很多关于其他职位您的意见,他们总是有见地。在一个有些不相关的切线,我用来订阅,并按照一些低脂肪素食主义者的博客和作家,但不得不采取从各退一步,但他们中的一个,因为我发现自己的岗位上也触发。一切似乎都被旋转约减肥,我会相处了几天串起后来才说:“这个帖子不打算威廉app对我”。至于多少,我还是自己掂量出焦虑 - 我爱我目前的日常心理多么少的能源需要,我不想要减肥时,我知道它会花费我!它种让我想起了什么吉纳她自己约orthorexia故事说的 - 这是多么阴险和欺骗性。威廉app
      对不起,无关的小说——只是最新一届ing that has *almost* caught me off-guard

    • Hi five indeed, Sarah! So lovely to see your comments, and I am glad that you continue to be well and strong in your recovery

  2. 佳佳和吉纳 - 谢谢你的分享!
    Though never having an ED, I totally understand the pressures Allison felt in her early years (former gymnast here). I love that Gena’s blog inspired you. I feel that same sense of welcoming and belonging when I, a non vegan, read.
    所有最好的给你,佳佳。这听起来像你在你恢复一个伟大的地方是,我希望你继续成长,寻求和平。

  3. This was beautiful! I totally agree that reading a Green Recovery story feels like meeting a kindred spirit. Also, I love that you became vegan after getting a vegan cookbook – that’s how I was introduced to the lifestyle as well. It’s amazing how something so simple like that can make a big impact!

    • 由于吉纳和玛丽亚!
      米卡是最大的一件事使我公司nnected to the ethical reasons for veganism. There are probably more rescue beagles here in Newfoundland than in any other province in Canada because they are used (and abused) so often as hunting dogs and Mika is a rescue hunting dog herself. Since adopting her I have also learned that beagles are the #1 choice for product testing in laboratories *specifically* because they are more docile and less likely to behave aggressively when mistreated. How disgusting is that?!?! Our dogs are literally like children to us and love unconditionally. That has been so valuable to me.

  4. 谢谢吉纳和Allison!它总是一个快乐阅读如何去改变的素食主义者的健康和生命一般。恭喜!XO